J.C.

This has been sitting in my draft for the longest time. I've been meaning to pen down my thoughts and reflections but, procrastination always wins. Resilience // I believe God gave me this word to prepare me for the season that was to come. I didn't fully understand it at first because I couldn't comprehend the meaning behind it. Now that I just finish my second year in Degree, I thank God for resilience- not mine, but through God's grace. Who would have imagine this year passed so fast. I am done with my first year in Lasalle, and it felt as though it was yesterday when I just left the comfort of my home to embark on this character-training journey. I cannot remember myself a year ago honestly. I can safely say that I have grown :) That season, taught me so many things. I've experienced and went through so many emotional ups and downs. I'm not the best at controlling my emotions, I would say but it was a learning curve. I've learnt to not l...

The first week of January 2017 has passed, that's quick. Thought I should get this post done before I procrastinate any longer. Continuing from Part I. This part of 2016 journey is mostly Singapore, and also flying back and forth Singapore-Malaysia. Honestly a very tough transition for me though it's literally a one hour flight away, but now, I can say that I have found home in this cities :) First trip down to Singapore, officially moved here on the 16th July 2016. Thankful for my parents <3 The first week of Singapore was a rather fun one, got to settle down with my parents' help and then with Howie as he show me around Singapore and help me get some errands done. We explored many different places in Singapore. Art Science Museum, Marina Bay Sands, Gardens by the Bay, Ion Orchard Sky Deck, etc. After my parents and Howie left, I'm pretty sure I've written about how homesick I was. Hahah, thank God I am better now. Still miss home but...

I guess it's only necessary to do a reflection for 2016 before ushering in 2017. In summary, I would say that 2016, for me, has been one of the most challenging but at the same time, a year with the most growth. This year, I had the opportunity to be more independent, and discover myself and God in a deeper and more intimate way. I remembered, as I am typing this, in the beginning of 2016, a friend of mine prophesied over me on how this year will be a year where I step into adulthood, a year where even when I face challenges I will still carry that smile on my face with confidence that God is fighting my battles with me- hence,  a year of discovery. Putting up some of my 2016 adventures, from March! Just because I am a very sentimental person and I love going back in memories. First proper camping! This trip was really significant. I just quite my job- that honestly felt like I was working for 10 years! And it was the beginning of rediscovery and reconnecting wi...

View from the 57th floor on the majestic Marina Bay Sands. Singapore, you're a beauty.

My fav. came and surprised me for the weekend <3 The past two weeks has been crazy hectic! Submissions one after another. Both of us have been so busy- him with conference and me with interim submission- that the short 3 days with him was really timely. It was so surreal to see him right in front of me haha I couldn't even eat. Honestly I've been suspecting it for a week that he was gonna come down to surprise me but I just put it at the back of my head because I didn't want to be disappointed. (and I didn't want to ruin my own surprise) I realized that I'm actually quite smart and observant from that haha ;) One thing I love about LDR is definitely when both of us finally get to be with each other, it feels like we just fall in love with each other all over again. 6 more days till home for the weekend and 4 more weeks to final submission omg.

Love my church and love what I get to do for God. This has been one of the most stretching week yet. Just last week I said 'Yes' to stepping up and allowing God to increase my capacity, I did not expect at all for it to be as stretching as this. It's been tough, tiring and physically and spiritually challenging, but I loved it. Not because it kept me busy, but because through it all, God was carrying me all along. Almost 3 months now, glad that I'm beginning to have a family and making Singapore more of a home for me instead of an assignment :)

Been drawing on my iPad these few days, inspired by my good good Father :) Today, we got back our results from the interim submission last week. Honestly,  I wasn't very happy with what I got, because I know that I can do much better (or I'm just giving myself quite a high expectation) But with that, I realized that my worth and value doesn't come from that number written on the paper. Yes, I still have to work hard and try my best. Yes, I have to give my all. But hey, my priority is still God and my health above any other- I've learned it the hard way. So, yeah. It's just really comforting and reassuring to know how Jesus my life on His hands. This drawing is a reminder that He is my rock and my identity, at the end of the day, lies in Him.

Taking a break from work to note down some thoughts here. Honestly quite excited for the coming months of 2016. Most excited for Christmas! As September comes, and the year is slowly coming to an end, I cannot be more thankful for the now. Just noticed the book that I was reading in the photo, 'Captivating', it's one of the best book I've ever read. It's so timely especially at that exact moment when I read it, transitioning into adulthood and really understanding the value that God has for women.This year is a year of growth and pushing boundaries to increase my capacity. But isn't it every year that's like that? We are always growing, whether we realize or not. Looking forward for my trip back home this weekend!!