Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Resilience


This has been sitting in my draft for the longest time. I've been meaning to pen down my thoughts and reflections but, procrastination always wins.

Resilience //
I believe God gave me this word to prepare me for the season that was to come. I didn't fully understand it at first because I couldn't comprehend the meaning behind it. Now that I just finish my second year in Degree, I thank God for resilience- not mine, but through God's grace. Who would have imagine this year passed so fast. I am done with my first year in Lasalle, and it felt as though it was yesterday when I just left the comfort of my home to embark on this character-training journey. I cannot remember myself a year ago honestly. I can safely say that I have grown :)

That season, taught me so many things. I've experienced and went through so many emotional ups and downs. I'm not the best at controlling my emotions, I would say but it was a learning curve. I've learnt to not let the emotions get the best of me and I am still learning. I have learned that God will always be the one to comfort my heart. Yes, I have great friends, parents that loves me so much and an amazing boyfriend but, our Father in Heaven is the only one that just... knows. He's there when my heart felt like an anchor thrown into the ocean, He's real.

This year has challenged my creative skills like never before. It has always been my weakest point and it still feels like it. I've always been a more practical and technical person as compared to creativity. But the people here in Lasalle, they're the complete opposite. They are idealist, dreamers and their creativity and imagination goes beyond what I have ever seen in my experience in this industry. It doesn't help when every single one in my class are so competitive. I cannot even keep up. It always feel like I'm falling behind and I'm not good enough. I'm always struggling with pushing myself more, pushing the boundaries and dream bigger. Though year 2 ended and I think I did fairly okay, considering I completed what I need to, but in terms of creativity, I could have done so much more. I gave it my all, but I feel like I still have so much more to offer.

Now, I'm just in a confused state and season. I think it's the transition. But I'll figure out soon :)


Sunday, January 8, 2017

2016; A Year of Discovery - Part II

The first week of January 2017 has passed, that's quick. Thought I should get this post done before I procrastinate any longer. Continuing from Part I. This part of 2016 journey is mostly Singapore, and also flying back and forth Singapore-Malaysia. Honestly a very tough transition for me though it's literally a one hour flight away, but now, I can say that I have found home in this cities :)

First trip down to Singapore, officially moved here on the 16th July 2016.

Thankful for my parents <3 The first week of Singapore was a rather fun one, got to settle down with my parents' help and then with Howie as he show me around Singapore and help me get some errands done.



We explored many different places in Singapore. Art Science Museum, Marina Bay Sands, Gardens by the Bay, Ion Orchard Sky Deck, etc.

After my parents and Howie left, I'm pretty sure I've written about how homesick I was. Hahah, thank God I am better now. Still miss home but I definitely have learned to be more independent. I remember taking the picture above while walking back from class one day. I was feeling horribly homesick but I looked up and was smitten by the sky. God knows how to comfort me :) It reminded me again that I'm not alone and it honestly made me feel better hehe

Through this journey, I learned how to love my own company and enjoy solitude. I've learned more about myself and just being in God's and my own presence. I started exploring places alone, it was hard even stepping out of the house at first. I didn't want to go out because I've always wanted company or just want to explore with Howie, but I've learned to find joy in going out alone. I went to museums, libraries and even taking random bus/train rides to see where it leads me to.

At the end of August, my 95 girls came to Singapore!! Our long awaited USS trip has finally come. It was a short 3 days but it was one of the best weekend. We went to USS, Red Hill for avocado shake (which was THE BOMB), Tiong Bahru and also got to attend church service together. I loved that I got to spend the whole week with Nia too, we literally saw each other every single day. Thank God I didn't get sick of her face.

One of my trip back home to KL <3 Pan Mee will forever be my comfort food.

Singapore definitely helped me to be a little fitter, as I'm walking more. I've always liked walking, and walks back to my HDB is always really nice and peaceful. But now that I found out there's a direct bus that stops right at where I stay, I've been getting a little lazier hehe

My view from where I sit, but now it's blocked by papers that is pasted on the glass.

The friends I've made :)

Some nights we need to stay in studio just a little later. I don't mind working in the studio, as I'm typing this, I have my earphones plugged in and just enjoying doing work in my own bubble. It's nice to have people around other than me staying in my own room, which gets quite lonely and boring.

Bus stop shadows beauty :)

I love that I get to be walking (although I miss my car sometimes), and enjoy the breeze and the masterpiece in the sky.

Fav fav <3 This boy never fail to surprise me.

One thing I absolutely love about Singapore is the art scene.


Jen, Jessie & Jose.

Skyping with the Flamingos <3 Love them.

I attended many weddings this year, and one of it is Rachael's wedding. Second one of the cousins in my mum's side of the family!

Got to bring Yvette, KL and Brian around too with Evan when they were over.

Ivory and Caleb weds!!!! She is such a beautiful bride.

First time rock climbing. Finally. I absolutely loved it.

Came back to KL for this one's graduation. 2 graduations in two week! Mega proud of him, his degree life was a tough one but God is good :)

This year, I got to work alongside these people in church. It was challenging but definitely a whole lot of fun.

Thankful and so proud of Howie! :)

A view that I have the privilege to admire as I fly back and forth Singapore - KL.

Here's to 2017.


Sunday, January 1, 2017

2016; A Year of Discovery - Part I

I guess it's only necessary to do a reflection for 2016 before ushering in 2017.

In summary, I would say that 2016, for me, has been one of the most challenging but at the same time, a year with the most growth. This year, I had the opportunity to be more independent, and discover myself and God in a deeper and more intimate way. I remembered, as I am typing this, in the beginning of 2016, a friend of mine prophesied over me on how this year will be a year where I step into adulthood, a year where even when I face challenges I will still carry that smile on my face with confidence that God is fighting my battles with me- hence, a year of discovery.

Putting up some of my 2016 adventures, from March! Just because I am a very sentimental person and I love going back in memories.


First proper camping! This trip was really significant. I just quite my job- that honestly felt like I was working for 10 years! And it was the beginning of rediscovery and reconnecting with myself.

Juneeee <3 One of my most favourite person. This year, I got to journey with her and it's an honour to have learned so much from her.

Suann! Our friendship is something I really treasure and this woman is a gem. She is so special <3

Got to hike to a few waterfalls this year too! Definitely one thing I love about my country!

Steamboat for Mother's Day. This was so much fun and I love that as a family, we are doing a little more things together now and being more intentional :)

During Howie's birthday weekend, we went to Cameron Highland. It was a very refreshing and relaxing trip. Everything was really God's intervention. It was magical.

Mummy's birthday this year :) Baked her a cake, even though it was a little bit unsuccessful haha, but I'm glad it kind of managed to look and taste decent.

Something really significant yet magical that happened this year was that God gave me Howie, as cheesy as it sounds, he really is the man of my dreams. The more I know him and his heart, the more I dwell in the reality of how God answers your prayer and grants your desires. Having Howie on this journey of life with me is definitely one of the highlight this year. We both have grown so much. Our relationship has been stretching, there're arguments and disagreements, but it really does make us stronger :) Posting the picture of flowers because this man loves buying me flowers and surprising me with them. And he knows that I love them hehe

One of the most spontaneous and YOLO thing I've done this year; waking up at 5am, drive to Kuantan, hike up to a waterfall, went to Balok to surprise June and had lunch with them, head back to KL. All in the span of one day!

My big sis/ mentor got MARRIED!! It is so evident that God is the author of their story <3

Love going on adventures and exploring the world with this one :)


This is one of my most favourite day, Howie lied to me and told me that we were going on a 'date' and made me wear a dress and a blindfold. Honestly, I was loving it because I love surprises haha. Our 'date' turned out to be a farewell dinner for me before heading to Singapore. Penny made me a book filled with words and pictures from almost everyone, and it made me cry. It made me realised how much I'm going to miss home and how much I value each of them in my life.

Continuing part II with a lot of pictures in Singapore!